UncategorizedNovember 2, 2005 2:52 am

It’s Official.. I’m an addict

Awww look, my very first meme. Not that I have a whole bunch of readers but what the hay.. might be fun!

First

  • First job:
    • Bank clerk

  • First screen name:
    • Red_Diva75

  • First funeral:
    • some person I didn’t know well… obviously don’t remember

  • First pet:
    • of my very own, some dead fish whose name I don’t remember

  • First piercing:
    • ears

  • First tattoo:
    • sun on my lower back

  • First credit card:
    • Discov.er (and the greedy busters still won’t give me peace)

  • First kiss:
    • 6th grade, some guy whose name i remember but won’t share

  • First enemy:
me, enemies… never. But I have done my share of dirt, I guess JH was my first enemy
Last

  • Last car ride:
    • home from getting my freedom papers notarized

  • Last kiss:
    • on a train

  • Last movie watched:
    • Madea’s Class Reunion

  • Last beverage drank:
    • Trade.winds Sweet tea (close as i can get to the real thing up here in the Chi)

  • Last food consumed:
    • damn, lunch and it’s almost 9pm. Lunch was some fries and a fruit cup. More filling than I thought!

  • Last phone call:
    • had to have a “distract me” call to my girl K in Houston.

  • Last time showered:
    • this damned morning (who would really answer that with a nasty truth)

  • Last CD played:
    • I only listen to my Ipod so I haven’t listened to a whole CD in a minute. My guess is that it was Al B Sure! (um and it was this week… I ain’t shamed!)

  • Last website visited:
google, my favorite place
Now

  • Single or taken:
    • Single

  • Gender:
    • Proud woman

  • Birthday:
    • March 24th

  • Sign:
    • Aries baby!

  • Siblings:
    • 4

  • Hair color:
    • natural.. no Kool-aid colors for the kid. It’s some shade of brown with some highlights

  • Eye color:
    • brown as the day I was born

  • Shoe size:
    • 8

  • Height:
    • 5′ 7″ (okay 5′ 6.5″ but i round up)

  • Wearing:
    • clothes

  • Drinking:
    • not enough

  • Thinking about:
    • food

  • Listening to:
the commuter train that runs past my house

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My life 2:35 am

The Absence of Fear

Being that I am the kind of girl I am (sorry… thinking in songs again) usually I am pretty fearless. But as I have gotten older (perhaps as I began to value life and limb and my future) I seem to be afraid of so much.

Fear is crippling. It stiffles creativity and personal growth. It’s the only thing that stands between you and the goal 99% of the time.

Now what the hell am I afraid of this week:
1. I was too afraid to climb the high wall at our leadership retreat last weekend. 20 other people did it and survived and what did I do…. heckled from the ground and then went home and beat myself up mentally for being chicken.
2. Moving forward as a single woman. I’ve been coupled for 13 long years and after the bout of weirdos I’ve met… let’s just say I’m a little shy now. Signed the divorce papers today so freedom’s date is 10/16/05 (y’all have a drink for me since I can’t afford the divorce party).
3. Poverty. I have roughly 18 months of school left and I won’t be employed until June 07 (maybe sooner, if I decide to finish in Dec 06). No real reason to be afraid of poverty, I got enough to pay for the things they take away (apartment, car) and as long as there is no debtors prison… I’m straight. But it’s my stubborn Aries pride that never lets me ask for things.
4. Carnies: Damned circus people (sorry… Aus.tin Pow.ers flashback)

Now I’m an Aries. A fire sign. I should know better. Must get past this learned helplessness. I have made it 30 years and have rolled right through hard times…. these too shall pass.

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