I am officially divorced as of today!
Well I think we should find a new word for it.. divorced just has such a harsh ring to it. Let’s try Recently Unshackled … how’s that? Maybe Freedom Filled. But anyway, I’m surprisingly okay. It took me about an hour or so for it to register. I shed a tear or two, mostly out of shame and fear. Shame about not being able to make it work and fear of what comes next, I suppose. But then I took inventory of all that I have and all that I am, and took one look in the mirror and remembered just how okay I really am.
It didn’t hurt that I am in Florida (Beloved, I’m recruiting at your alma mater for our medical school) for the next 3 days. It’s supposed to snow buckets while I’m away (sparing me from a flare of my seasonal affect issues). I think the change in scenery, the phone calls from loving friends, plus a run of fabulous music on the Ipod has helped me cope today. So I’m blogging today with a clear conscience and a bright spirit with a Doubl.e.tr.ee chocolate chip cookie in one hand.
But here is the question for the day, I’m emotional so maybe I overreacted.
I told my crew I wanted to do a girls weekend in Vegas as a 30th birthday do-over (I left my husband 3 days before my 30th so let’s just say it wasn’t the wild 30 of my dreams). They’re all game. But one friend sends an email saying well lets get a big group together, let’s invite me and my HUSBAND, my other girl and her HUSBAND, our other girl and THE MAN WHO IS IN LOVE WITH HER and a couple other people. Now would you suggest bringing husbands on a GIRLS trip for a person who is recently DIVORCED and does not currently have a real man-friend???????? So my response was, I would love to have a big group go on this trip but ummmmm husbands… not quite feeling it. She didn’t respond yet, and I hope I didn’t hurt her feelings but that was just damned insensitive to send on the DAY of my divorce!
I don’t know, y’all help me with this one!
