Might be the gloomy weather *note to self- get the H E double hockey sticks out of gloomy Chicago*

Might be the fact that I got stuff going on.

Might be the fact that I am sick and on overnight call where the call room reeks of foot funk.

But I’m feeling weighed down …

I’m not sure what the reason is. I am making a way for myself. I’m heading towards the end of medical school.

But I’m lonely. And not just for male attention. Most of my friends live out of state. And most of them have had recent life changes (marriage, new homes, second jobs) that are clamoring for their attention. I don’t mind doing things alone but I’m bout tired of me right about now. This weekend, I laid low for a minute then went out to run some errands. I was glancing through the theater section of the paper and noticed that August Wilson’s play Fences will be in Chicago at a small neighborhood theater that I absolutely love. I don’t know anyone with enough “culture” to want to tag along. I’m planning to go alone but sometimes you just want to go to dinner afterwards and dissect the play. Where on earth do you meet moderately cultured (but not pretentious) young people???? Makes me think of the list in my previous post about what I’m looking for. I couldn’t even begin to think of where I may meet such a person.

This stage in my life and career are quite interesting. I’m older than almost all of the medical students and even quite a few of the residents. The hierarchy of medicine doesn’t encourage residents to hang out with med students (not that I’ve met many I would like to hang out with). Guess I need to worry about what’s important right now. Graduation. A social life is highly overrated right now (or so I tell myself to make the days go by). I got my TIVO and my gym card and the internet (damn, all I need now is a cat).