Postcards from the Tip of Insanity

How could I have possibly forgotten to tell this story?

Y’all I had drama from over 3,000 miles away!

So some of you may remember I was diggin this guy who I was friends with when I was in the Army. He is, by the way, married (a fact that I knew, I know he’s truly unhappy, and I was willing to ignore for a minute- but only a minute).

Ok but that’s not the point of the story.

I came in at 645am from hanging out all night with one of my friends. My phone rings. It’s Germany. I was running late for work so I figured I’d call him back on the way to work. We’re still friends, talk all the time. The phone rings again. Missed call. Germany. Yet again. Missed call. Germany. I figure something serious must be going on! So I call back.

A woman answers the phone. (more…)

I’m so up and down right now.

I have 2 or 3 fabulous, life-affirming, joyful hours and then I sink into a funk again.

I can’t believe I’ll be yet another year older in 10 days! I’m usually such a birthday girl but this year I’m just not feeling my birthday. I set up a party for myself and 20 people have already said they’d roll through but that isn’t enough for me.

I don’t feel complete. Not in a “I need a man to complete me” kind of way. I feel like I’m peeking into my life right now and I’m not loving what I see. Things always have a way of working themselves out but right now I just feel like I can’t seem to get a grip on anything.

I guess I need to get off this computer and get up get out and get moving! I’m still feeling vulnerable which is an extremely scary feeling for me. I’m broke until May when the loan money kicks in. I’ve been grasping at straws trying to find a new mate.

Methinks it’s time to have a long conversation with myself. It’s time to hit the refresh button on my life and make some changes!