One of those days today…
It rained all day… I have incredible seasonal affect disorder so I really need sunshine in my life.
And on top of that, I’m broke. Matter of fact I’d have to borrow two dollars to be broke. Heck, I’ve contemplated a few criminal activities this week.
And the Army says I need to lose 15lbs. But I just keep eating crap because my money is tighter than tight.

But anyhoo, all of that could bring a person down. But right now, I’m looking up.
Because I need to.
Because I sit in church on Sundays and say that I believe.
Because my journey has taken me down some dark roads but there is light at the end of each and every path.
Because wallowing in a pit of despair is draining and doesn’t acccomplish a damned thing.
Because I am better than I’ve been in a long time despite the momentary sadnesses.

And to make today a brighter day, today would have been wedding anniversary number 4. So much has happened over the past year. Had this been a few months ago, I might have frowned at the thought that this would have been a special day. But you know what, it is a special day! Another day to be thankful for being free of the burden of an ineffective relationship. Another day to be excited about all of the possibility in my budding relationship with NG. Last year this time, I was burdened by my own fears and insecurities related to my “failure” in walking away from my marriage. This year I am 5 months from the end of medical school, happily dating, refreshed, renewed and healing. Can’t wait to see what next year brings :)