I get such a kick out of talking to the ex-husband. I hadn’t spoken with him in a month or so and I decided to make sure I didn’t have any mail at his house (he’ll hold on to the mail forever if I don’t call him). We had such a lovely conversation. We talked about his family for a while. His family isn’t close (which caused problems for us) but he did learn a little something about family from being around mine. His cousin graduated from high school recently which made me feel old because I remember her as a little 5 year old when I met the ex. He offered to drop off my mail after work and acted surprised when I told him to phone first because I’m not always at home at that time of night.

I miss his friendship sometimes.

I really don’t miss him the husband.

Thank you God! It took a long time to get there.

I talked to the clown in Germany (yeah I know, I probably shouldn’t be talking to him). He’s still diggin me, which usually would make me feel good but on him it’s kinda pitiful. We chatted on IM for an hour or so. He had the nerve to ask to see me on my webcam (hello, priviledges revoked). He keeps asking about my new man. Why is it that just because I am not feeling you, it has to be about somebody else. No my brother you brought that on yourself. The fact that I have a new man in my life (which I don’t have any problem admitting) just makes my life better but really, it is not the cause of me cutting him loose.

Can we just say that I am QUITE thankful for my freedom (from crazy ex-husbands and crazy potential ex-boyfriends)! It is amazing how much better life is when you stop trying to be in control. My soror and I were having a discussion about not trying to make God do what we want him to do. She was almost ordered to Ku.wa.it and she had gotten all upset until she took it to Him. Orders were deleted. I didn’t know how I was going to afford these away rotations in Florida and Texas but I asked Him to handle it for me. I got a $1000 scholarship from one of my rotation sites to pay for housing and transportation. I stopped begging God for a mate and whining about being lonely and what happens, He drops off a man at my doorstep. Everything happens in due time!