Postcards from the Tip of Insanity

Yes so I am the fool!

I watched “I Pity the Fool”

Twice.

My brain is liquid.

Why is that show like watching a very bad Saturday Night Live skit crossed with Mr Roger’s Neighborhood?

Damn that Coach!

Ok so I haven’t blogged in a few days… not that anybody is reading…

Decisions were made… I’m moving in with Coach. I haven’t told my sister yet because everytime I go to the house, she is either not there or asleep.

I am so in love with this man! Did I tell you all that I turned him into a blogger? He does his take on sports and entertainment at http://theworldaccordingtoac.blogspot.com

I’m even becoming domestic again. I am on my ER rotation right now so my hours are screwy. I worked 11pm to 7am on Monday then slept from 7:30 to 3. Since I was up, I decided to cook dinner for my sweetie and take him to his 2nd job. I wanted it to be a surprise so I told him I needed to chat with him about something. When I got there with his dinner, he was soooo surprised. Makes my day to make his day. That’s what love is all about to me.. digging deep and doing something small from the heart just because!

I have so much to write about (especially about the emergency room). Got a meeting in a few so I’ll catch up with the bloggers and then write a new post later.

Well as if i haven’t had enough going on lately….

COACH ASKED ME TO MOVE IN WITH HIM!!!!

Well temporarily at least I was planning to move into my own place in April so he wants me to come live with him until then. Okay this is a VERY tempting offer.

1. I love him
2. We’re thinking in future terms
3. His place is closer to work
4. The rent/bills won’t change
5. We don’t have any problem talking through issues.

Now the issues are that:
1. We’ve been dating seriously for only 6 months
2. His place is small
3. I will have to pare down my belongings
4. I don’t want to become complacent in the relationship.

The cutest thing is that he wants to ask my mother what she thinks about it. I asked her myself and she could truly care less. Matter of fact, she wasn’t surprised at all. At least I know that if it goes bad, I can go there. She respects the fact that he doesn’t want to shack up with me and that he wants this to be temporary. He really didn’t want me to just live with him but at this point he thinks it would be best for both of us. I love being there with him (as I am most nights of the week).

But I have a question: Why is it that we ask for advice and then hear what we want to hear? My girl said she wasn’t sure about this move because of what happened with her ex-fiance. I sat there thinking… yeah but he’s not like Coach and I don’t know what kind of relationship dynamics you had, etc etc.

Well my truth from Me and My Crazy World was to write 101 facts about me. I got to number 58 and the blasted computer froze up… but anyway, here goes:
1. My birth initals are DMH
2. My initials have been RMA and RMG
3. I asked to change my name when I was 2
4. My mother was reading me a story in the muslim newspaper and that’s where I got the name.
5. I got my name legally changed at the age of 13.
6. I have considered changing my name back.
7. I am the youngest girl of my father’s kids.
8. My brother is 11 months younger than me
9. I’m the oldest of my mother’s kids
10. I look like my mother
11. I look like my father’s daughter too
12. I don’t think my parents look alike at all.
13. I was born in Chicago
14. The hospital where I was born is affiliated with the med school that dismissed me in 1998.
15. I have been in honors classes all of my life.
16. Not all of my friends were in honors classes
17. I learned as much from them as I did from my “geek” friends
18. I love to watch sports
19. School has kept me so busy that I have lost track of all of the sports I once watched.
20. I live in a city with every professional sport but I have only been to baseball games
21. I’m learning about football.
22. I’m dating a sports fanatic.
23. I dated the same man for 10 years.
24. Our relationship survived me being away at college, him going to the Army Reserves, him being deployed to Kuwait and Texas, me being on active duty in the Army.
25. We were married 3 years.
26. I think I would get married again.
27. I’m glad I didn’t have kids with my ex.
28. I want 3 kids but I don’t think I’ll have more than 2.
29. I graduated from Xavier University of Louisiana 10 years ago.
30. Orientation was the first time I ever saw the school.
31. I thought I was going to Washington University in St Louis
32. I changed my mind when I saw the same black person 5 times on my campus tour.
33. I have always wanted to be a doctor.
34. I got kicked out of med school in 1998.
35. I went back to med school in 2002.
36. I spent 3 years on active duty.
37. Fort Polk, Louisiana was the worst place to be stationed.
38. I met one of my best friends there.
39. Most people tell me that I was a dude in a former life.
40. Most of my friends are men.
41. I’m more sensitive than I pretend to be.
42. I think my birthday should be a holiday.
43. I am more often than not a typical Aries.
44. I am afraid of falling.
45. I am not afraid of heights.
46. I have been to Japan.
47. I speak not a lick of Japanese.
48. I started the climb up Mt Fuji
49. I want to go back there in the future.
50. I would love to run a half-marathon.
51. I have bad knees so that may never happen.
52. I have brown eyes
53. I always wanted my mother’s light brown eyes.
54. I haven’t cut my hair in 5 years.
55. I’m bored with my hairstyle but I promised myself no cutting of the hair until I am a doctor.
56. I finish medical school in December.
57. I will be a family medicine doctor.
58. I want to work in a school clinic part time.
59. I despise abstinence only education.
60. My favorite physical feature is my legs.
61. I can’t tolerate looking at people with bad teeth.
62. I have tried internet dating
63. I would rather be alone than try that again.
64. I considered moving to Texas.
65. Chicago is not my favorite city in the world but it is home.
66. I think random thoughts all day long.
67. I love music
68. I sing in the Women’s Chorus at church
69. I am an alto but I sing soprano if needed.
70. My mother didn’t know I could sing until I was in high school.
71. I am a Christian but I can’t stand bible-thumping close minded people.
72. My best friends are the same folks from elementary school.
73. I have lots of close friends.
74. I can dress up and get fly with the best of them
75. I am equally comfortable (and cute) in jeans and a t-shirt
76. I am number 66 of 86 on my sorority line
77. I am a fabulous diva of Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Inc.
78. I never considered joining any other sorority.
79. I hate my line name.
80. I do know all of my line sisters
81. I haven’t been active in Delta in years
82. I do aspire to be active one day
83. I hope my children want to go to HBCUs.
84. There are certain HBCUs they will not be able to consider.
85. I would not object if they choose to go to other schools.
86. I was in a debutante cotillion.
87. My family is poor
88. My mother has “rich folk” ideas
89. My mother has sacrificed a lot for me.
90. I hope to take care of her one day.
91. I will be glad when I think of 10 more things to say.
92. I need a nap.
93. I am a morning person.
94. I always seem to date men who are night owls.
95. I have a tendency to meet men who are emotionally unavailable.
96. They are all just like my father.
97. I have been through alot in my 31 years on this planet.
98. I would not do anything different.
99. I would love to attend my own funeral
100. I hope that if someone had to come up with 101 things about me, 75 of them would be positive.
101. I can’t believe I finished this.

Ok that’s enough about me…

My sister is buying a house. A house that is far from where I work and I will have to pay more rent. I may have to go back to my mother’s house. I have at least 6 months before I can afford my own place. Graduation can’t come fast enough for me. I need to get a JOB!

Coach and I are out of sync right now. The wonderful thing is that we are able to talk about it. We have decided that we are both dealing with some personal issues and we are just generally feeling off. I’m glad to be home. He’s glad to have me home. We are still spending time together and enjoying it, but it doesn’t feel like it did before I left town the second time. And that’s okay. I still love being with him and this too will pass.

My car is still acting up. Why not? That’s the kind of week I am having.

But all in all, I’m okay. Life is truly better than it was a year or two ago. I’m almost done with school. I’m getting interviews from the places I’m interested in. I’m in a good relationship with someone who knows that he’s in a good relationship with me. Life has its ups and downs but it’s the sum total of the directions that I need to focus on.

Hey all, when you get a chance, stop by my friend’s blog
The World According to AC

I made it home safely from Jacksonville. So glad to be home! Coach made me dinner and didn’t even eat any because he was full. I can’t say how much I appreciate that man! He kept calling so that he could time dinner to be ready when i got there. Of course we kept running into minor traffic issues that made the trip longer and longer. I was getting antsy because I was trying to get to my sweetie.

So far I have 6 interviews. Why is there a program that I find interesting that is an hour and a half from here? Is this a test? I am going to interview there and then see what happens. I still don’t think I want to move but this should be interesting.

Today has been a day. Got a traffic ticket this morning (yeah I drive 16 hours without getting one and get one at home)! My car is acting crazy this morning. I was having a breakdown until Coach called and said “Whatever it is, we can get through it together” How sweet is that!

Gotta take a nap, when I wake up I hope this day gets better.