Postcards from the Tip of Insanity

Haven’t posted lately because I just plain ole didn’t feel like it!

But anyway…

Resolved my issues with my girl (more or less).  I told her how I felt and she told me how overwhelmed she is right now and how she’s sorry.  I let it go at that.

I have been gone for the last week or so processing myself back onto active duty.  Yeah, I sound excited don’t I.  I hate having my time wasted but the money is quite alright.  It feels so good to be working again.  I have felt like a slug for the past 3 years because I’m so used to working.  Yeah yeah I know, I was in med school so what. 

I sat down yesterday on Quicken to plan out the finances.  Looks like with the grace of God, I will be debt-free except for student loans in Jan 2008.  I am eyeballing a new car for Jan 2008.  I’m excited, it’s making this year worth something at least.

Of course now that I sat down to blog, I just remembered I have laundry to get out of the laundry room.  So much for the long update, maybe later.

Ok all,

Need some help.  I didn’t blog about my party because I have been dealing with some issues related to my friendships.  None of my close friends were able to make it to the party.  One just had a baby, one had to attend the recital of her daughter, one was getting her dogs fixed, one was broke.  But that’s not what was bothering me.  I totally understand that life happens, what I don’t understand is why life has to happen on my big day.

Several friends tried.  They sent text messages and left telephone congrats messages but seriously, I feel selfish because I was expecting at least a small gift.  Do you know that one friend had the nerve to tell me that it didn’t matter that the girls weren’t there because Coach and my family were.  Da hell!  The thing is, this friend is well known for being kinda tactless.  She forgot my birthday this year and didn’t even remember when I asked her what happened on Saturday.  In her minor defense, she just had a baby a couple weeks ago.  Fine.  But how are you gonna tell me that you got my email about the webcast but you couldn’t write a one line "Congrats girl" message.  Took me less than 10 seconds to do that.  So ummm, I’m giving her a little space right now.  Don’t know if we’ll remain friends, we’ll see. 

The big problem is that I’m the kind of person who goes out of her way for people.  Need me to fly to the city I hate most when I am single and not working… I’m on it. Need some forgiveness… I got you!  But I’m tired of being disappointed by others.  Now on one hand, if you don’t let people in, they can’t disappoint you but I can’t imagine being anybody but me.  If you don’t let people in, you spend forever alone.

I didn’t realize how much I missed my friends till they weren’t there.  I need to work on cultivating some new friendships.  The old friends are still important but I need to open myself to the type of people I want to be around.  The kinds of people who cry with you when you’re hurting, who help you spend your money when you have it, and the type who celebrate with you when it’s time to celebrate. 

Am I being selfish?  Was I wrong?

Hey all,

Allow me to introduce myself right quick…

My correct and full name is…

Rashida Marie Gray, MD

That’s right, a sista graduated yesterday (pausing for a round of applause… I’m serious… getta clapping)

Oh me oh my what a journey this has been. Now y’all know I have at least one story.

I’ve probably mentioned before that my father is a 62 year old homeless man. I wish I were joking but it’s my life and my reality. My dad does taxes on the side but of course he quickly spends his loot so he’s usually broke by mid-May or early June. But anyway, he promised to help fund my graduation brunch. He should know by now that he’s ALWAYS Plan B. My mother already figured out how to pay for the party. I’ve been calling my dad all week to make sure he knows what time and the location of graduation but do you think he answered the phone… ummmmm no! So I got my sister to call, no answer. My brother tried, no answer. My father can pull a disappearing act in a heartbeat I tell ya! He finally called my sister back (I guess he made a little loot on the Kentucky Derby) with no excuse for not picking up the phone. You know he was front and center at graduation with a fresh haircut and his best suit on. My family saw him counting my graduation present but he forgot to give it to me in his haste to get out of there (he doesn’t do crowds well).

Y’all why did my mother’s cousin send me a money order for $51.60. Yes fifty one dollars and sixty cents!!! HAHAHAHAHA! She is mighty special and always has been.

All in all a good day, my four sisters came, my niece and nephew, my best friend and his wife, my girls from high school, my girl from college, my aunt from Florida, and of course my hunnybunny! Now it’s time to get dressed to collect my loot … I mean enjoy my party!

Toodles

Busy week y’all,
Graduation is on Friday so I’m busy getting last minute things done for my party, picking out outfits and in general just having a grand ole time.

Looks like things are coming together nicely, hopefully the fat checks will be rolling in soon soon soon cuz a sista is broke!

Will post some pics of the hair and pregraduation festivities as soon as the man in my house un-password protects the picture files on our computer… damn I.T. guys