Life is an incredibly wild rollercoaster ride!

One moment I am lamenting my lack of apartment and the next I am the happy tenant of a 2 bedroom in a quiet suburb with reasonable rent.

One moment I am lamenting my relationship issues and the next I am smiling in my heart.

One moment I am lamenting my year of military service and the next I am signing my discharge paperwork.

A series of moments. Memories. Tears. Smiles.  A life lived in moments that feel so disconnected but are the steps to goals.

I am on a journey back to me.  One of my best friends told me yesterday that I have to stop trying to be who people expect me to be and just be me.  Her take on my current relationship dilemma is that Coach is more like the person people expect quiet, smart, responsible me to be with.  And I am quiet, smart, and responsible.  But I am also silly, fun, occasionally alcohol soaked, smart-aleky, relaxed, sexy me too.  The person I am meant to be with gives me the freedom to be all of those things.  That may be why Coach thinks I’m different now.  But I’m not different, I’m just me.  Me who loves to be busy, not just stay in and watch tv.  Me who loves doing volunteer work.  Me who likes old man liquor and fru-fru-la-la drinks too.  Me who loves to be nekkid and adores good sex.  Me who loves an intellectual challenge.  Me who colors in kids coloring books and then goes off to ponder the eloquent writings of Ralph Ellison.  Me… unplugged.