Postcards from the Tip of Insanity

Okay so it’s been two weeks since my last update… sue me (you’ll still be broke)!

Obstetrics has been kicking my butt!  By far the worst call nights I have ever had.  Usually when I’m on call I get at least 3 or 4 hours sleep, not so much on this service.  These women think it’s okay to have babies at all kinds of ungodly hours of the night!  But seriously, I have had a great experience delivering babies.  My personality is clearly not suited for a full time career in obstetrics, I am far too methodical and focused.  Not to stereotype but the obstetricians yell and run a lot, seriously… where is the fire??? These babies can get out on their own, chill!

I’ve had some memorable patients but by far my favorite patient has been the young deaf girl.  She and her family were sooooo sweet.  We even bonded with the interpreter.  I usually get off at 5 if I’m not on call.  She had been on the floor pretty much all day and had not delivered.  At 4pm, out pops the baby (well, I had to help deliver but you get the point).  I felt so proud to have been there to celebrate with her.  Her mom just hugged me and her fiance (who is also deaf) couldn’t stop smiling.  Usually I’m a cynic and don’t tear up at much but for some reason that couple touched my heart.   Both have a serious handicap that for some people may have been too much to handle but these young people were starting out just like any other couple, just with adaptations.

So what’s new on my personal front?  This was my first Christmas with the Ambassador (he seems to know somebody every place we go).  I’m a holiday kinda gal so I was really looking forward to celebrating with him.  I got the Ambassador a sweater, a nice watch, and his favorite movie on DVD.  It didn’t take me any time to get his gifts because I know my honey so very well.  He too knows me… I got a new Ipod, Dance Party for my Wii and a bottle of Maker’s Mark   He’s so cute, he really didn’t have alot of money for Christmas but he couldn’t wait to spend money on me.  I’m not the kind of gal who demands trinkets and expensive things.  I love when someone can think of what I’ve been talking about and just get something.  He said he had a list of about 7 things (at least one or two of which will probably be my Vday and birthday gift).  We had a thousand stops to make for the holiday but we made our Christmas rounds together.  I’m truly thankful for him and looking forward to many many more holidays.

So that’s it for now… I start ICU next week.  I go from birth to near death, YUCK!  Critical care medicine is my least favorite subject and I will be counting down the 30 days I have to spend in the unit!

Hey…

I don’t know who’s reading but I’m still alive.  I can’t believe it’s been that long since I wrote on my own blog.  (Not for lack of material, that’s for sure).  One day turned into two which turned into a few months.  But I’m back.  I missed blogging but I wasn’t sure where to start.

So let’s start at today…

Residency…

     Is tough!  So far I’ve completed 2 months of Surgery, 2 months of Pediatrics, and 2 months on our Inpatient Service.  1/2 way finished with my first year!!!  I’m learning so much about managing patients and about managing a career.  I can’t believe I’m doing what I love.  This month I’m on Obstetrics.  I helped deliver a couple babies so far!  Really exciting sometimes.  Sometimes it makes me a little sad because I really want kids and I wonder when it will be my turn.  I’ll have to blog about some of my favorite patients soon.  The REALLY special ones, love me.

Love…

     I haven’t told you guys about the new man in my life.  I’ll have to come up with a blog name for him.  We’ve known each other since high school.  Who knew we would get along so well romantically.  He went to high school with The Ass and has been best friends with one of my best friends since kindergarten.  Our paths have crossed a million times but we’ve always just been friends.  About a year ago, we ran into each other at a wedding and have been best buds ever since.  I was dating Coach and he had a girlfriend so initially nothing romantic was popping off (even though I did know he has thought I was cute since HS).  I plead the fifth about whether anything happened before our breakups.  But since then, we have been utterly inseparable. 

     I went back and read some things I wrote about Coach and other men in my past and at first I was worried because my feelings for this one sound vaguely familiar.  But in analysis with a few of my best friends, I have come to understand that what I felt for the men in the past is no less genuine than what I feel now.  They were preparation for what I have now.  I’m totally myself with him, I was always guarded with Coach and I was sure nuff rusty in the dating game with the other fellows. He accepts me flaws and all, as I do with him.  Our relationship isn’t perfect, but I am so happy and proud to have him in my corner.  I told him the other day that I used to joke about rolling all my exes and male friends up to make a wonderful man for me.  The weird thing is that he is all of them in one.  My family likes him so far and my friends love him.  Well then again, they always say that until the breakup… then they tell me how they really feel. I’m some crazy kind of in love with him, we’re even that "cutesy couple" that I always laugh at.  I can’t believe I’m the "honey" and "sweetheart" kind of gal now.  My niece is even willing to share him with me, and she doesn’t like anyone!

 So I’m back… gonna do better!  I miss sharing my life with the world